Description of Topics;
Co-Dependency is the 2nd leading crippler of all addicts, is a crime of passion, not love.
Sexual Addictions are often attributed to one's feeling the loss of control, or abuse as a child, or to gain lost power
and control over another.
Alcohol & Other Drugs, alcohol is a drug. Education and Treatments.
Kleptomania & Gambling, are very similar in their nature, as both cause the rise of pleasure center chemistry in the
brain, causing addiction much as now is being discovered with cell phones and other electronic mediums.
Symptoms of Addiction can often go undetected by an untrained eye.
Denial, is the 1st leading cause of Relapse.
All Cravings can be overcome with a healthy substituted addiction.
Boundaries must be established to prevent returning to the old ways of thinking.
Programs, such as A.A. are only the beginning in the recovery process for most, but not a end.
Sponsorship allows one another to stay accountable to, to learn copying skills and a safe place to vent frustrations.
Gratitude & Journaling is a must, as it is only when we document our feeling, do we realize the triggers that cause our
relapse, keeping us ever grateful for all things good, bad or indifferent.
The Path to Peace is a road that we all must find at some point in our lives, as if we do not learn to forgive others, we
will never know peace, yet we will remain in our eternal prison of our own design.
Healing the Spirit-Self. Because we are spirit beingness living in a material world, we must first heal the spirit-Self in
order to maintain the health and integrity of the material mind and body.
The Law of One & Drug Use;
“Questioner: The instrument (communication translator) wanted to ask if there were any other substances, foods, etc. that
she should not eat or drink or things that she should not do because she does not wish to have poor contact for any
Ra: I am Ra. (a social memory complex that remains within our consciousness hoping to clear up the distortion it created in its zeal to
aid the people of Egypt many thousands of years in the past ) There is no activity which this instrument engages in which affects
abilities negatively. There is one activity which affects its abilities positively. This is the sexual activity, as you would call
it. There are substances ingested which do not aid the individual in the service it has chosen, this being that which you
would call the marijuana. This is due to the distortion towards chemical lapses within the mind complex causing lack of
synaptic continuity. This is a chemical reaction of short duration.
This instrument, however, has not used this particular substance at any time while performing this service. We believe
we have covered the use of such chemical agents as LSD, this being positive to a certain extent due to the energizing or
speeding up of the vital forces. However, it is not recommended for this instrument due to the toll it takes upon the vital
energies once the substance wears off. This being true of any speeding-up chemical.
Questioner: What cause or complex of causes has led to the instrument’s chest cold, as it is called?
Ra: I am Ra. This distortion towards illness was caused by the free will of the instrument in accepting a chemical
substance which you call LSD. This was carefully planned by those entities (Orion-service-to-self orientation known to most as
“Devil or evil”) which do not desire this instrument to remain viable.
The substance has within it the facility of removing large stores of vital energy from the ingestor. The first hope of the
Orion entity which arranged this opportunity was that this instrument would become less polarized towards what you call
the positive. Due to conscious efforts upon the part of this instrument, using the substance as a programmer for service
to others and for thankfulness, this instrument was spared this distortion and there was no result satisfactory to the
Questioner: The instrument asks how long will the debilitating effects that I am experiencing due to the LSD last, and is
there anything that we can do to make the instrument more comfortable?
Ra: I am Ra. Firstly, the period of weakness of bodily complex is approximately three of your lunar cycles, the first
ingestion causing approximately one of your lunar cycles; the second having a cumulative or doubling effect.”
The Wave Series Transcripts & Drug Use;
"Q: (L) Carlos Casteneda writes about the peyote beings called “Mescalitos.” This being supposedly is part of the
peyote plant, a sort of being from the plant. Is this true?
Q: (L) What beings does one encounter when one eats a bunch of peyote?
Q: (L) Why are these hallucinations so consistent?
A: Because those that do have that expectation. If you ate enough peyote you would encounter Santa Claus if that was
your expectation. (Much laughter)
Q: (L) One of the questions on the list is: In many of the Sumerian drawings and literature, the gods, the Annunaki, are
described as eating a plant that grew at the bottom of the ocean, and this plant was the source of eternal life.
A: Nonsense! The source of eternal life is existence!
Q: (L) Well, the point was that there was some sort of food that these beings ate that was unusual or different that
somehow enhanced their abilities to an extreme degree…
A: Totally false and you should know it!! All so-called “special powers” come from non-physical sources!!!
Q: I want to you to know that a fan was not happy with what he considered to be “internal inconsistencies” in that you
were NOT favorably disposed toward hallucinations produced by substances such as Mescaline and Ayahuasca, but yet
you recommend Melatonin because the fan believes that Melatonin is a form of hallucinogen.
Then, you said that spiritual powers could not be obtained through chemicals or plant type means, but then said that
Melatonin exercises psychic abilities. Could you comment on this?
A: Melatonin does not force an alteration in physiological brain chemicals, as do mescaline, peyote, LSD, etc. Accessing
the higher levels of psychical awareness through such processes is harmful to the balance levels of the prime chakra.
This is because it alters the natural rhythms of psychic development by causing reliance on the part of the subject, thus
subjugating the learning process. It is a form of self-imposed abridging of free will.
Melatonin simply allows the system to clear obstructions in the brain chemistry naturally, thereby allowing the subject to
continue to learn at a natural pace. And, it is by no means unimportant that melatonin is a natural body hormone. The
other substances mentioned are, at least in part, synthetic, with the exception of peyote. But even that is not a natural
ingredient of the human physiological being.
Q: Can anything be done about the physiology of my son's adverse behavior, such as a tea, or an herb, or a
supplement that will help him? Something to ease that for him?
A: Would be unwise. Might lead to still further substance experimentation.
Q: What substance experimentation?
A: You know them as drugs.
Q: Why would giving a tea or herbal preparation lead to substance abuse or experimentation?
A: Leads one of “a tender stage” to believe the answers lie within physical solutions."
“Why do you think the Media is so important to us? You have (as a society), in your hypnotized comatose
state, given your Free Will consent to the state your planet is in today. You saturate your minds with the unhealthy
dishes served up for you on your televisions that you are addicted to, violence, pornography, greed, hatred,
selfishness, incessant 'bad news', fear and 'terror'. When was the last time you stopped, to think of something beautiful
and pure? The planet is the way it is, because of your collective thoughts about it.
You are complicit in your inaction, every time you 'look the other way' when you see an injustice. Your 'thought' at the
sub-conscious level of creation to the Creator, is your allowance of these things to occur. In so doing, you are serving
our purpose. It is very important to us, that the Polarization of this planet is Negative at the time of the Great Harvest.
That means Service to Self orientated, as opposed to Positive, Service to Others. We require a Negative Harvest, and
you are doing a fine job of helping us to attain our goal. We are very grateful.” - Hidden Hand claims to be a member
of a social memory complex that calls itself "Lucifer".
(more regarding social memory complexes can be found on my Ancient Wisdom page)
I grew up around my folk's beer and wine bars within a logging community. I thought people getting drunk and beating
the holy hell out of each was normal behavior. During my teen years, as long as my friends and I stayed home, we were
allowed to have fermented spirits. I used them to get the girls that came for our parties loosened up, clear up into my
By the time many of my friends had begun "shooting-up" cocaine, I was just beginning to try pot. I'll never forget the first
time the THC had an effect on me. I laid on the bathroom floor for hours experiencing a distorted realm of
consciousness, that today would almost seem humerus.
Why I smoked pot clear up into my early 40s I really can't say. I seem to have enjoyed the rush of the exhale, but had a
disdain for the later after effects. And why I continued to try other drugs clear up into my late 20s, thinking back now,
was because I was curious, as now I can't stand being high. Even drinking to much coffee begins to irritate me.
In my mid 40s I returned to school then opened a recovery center with two of my senior classmates. What an experience
What is an Addiction?
It appears that because we are spiritual being having a physical experience we often become confused hoping to fulfill
our spiritual needs with artificial stimulants, thus finding our-self even more confused and empty, having abridged our-
If you have opened this window, chances are you have a love one whose addiction is holding everyone hostage.
Therefore, the addict is going to require that you understand the mechanics of addiction, because addicts are often
convinced that the worlds mechanics are the problem and not theirs
If that loved one can't survive a month or even as much as a day without engaging in some form of either unlawful,
unhealthy, unethical, self-destructive, or otherwise risky behavior, chances are they have an unconscious death wish.
If you are the one who suspects that you may have a problem with an addiction and you need further evidence, ask
your-self the following questions; How has your spiritual, physical and mental health been lately? Have the police or the
FBI, CIA or Home Land Security had to help you manage your life lately? Has your boss, your spouse, or maybe your kid
or other family member said that your addiction has become a problem for them, but you just can’t understand why?
Is frustration eating a hole in your soul, and you feel in your heart that your addiction has progressively began to take
control over you, rather than you controlling it? Or have you been allowed to justify it because the world is going to hell
anyway, so what is the use in trying?
I have some good news for you; The world is entering a cleansing fire, but please do not view it as negative, its just the
ending of a cycle and the birthing of the next. However, if you are beginning to use more artificial stimulation like alcohol
or other drugs to allow yourself to engage in behaviors such as gaming, pornography, materialism, or other risky
hobbies because you are having difficulty dealing with life on life's terms, you must understand you are being allowed
various catalysts. These catalysts, or exciters are a gift to us in order to help us change our minds.
Because of this catalyst this world is filled with pain and sorrow, but I have better learned to deal with life on life's terms,
and so can you. Firstly, you must allow your-self not to take things so serious, but rather learn how to just enjoy the ride,
to have fun on this journey, this process, and all without numbing myself with artificial stimulations.
If you are like the countless people that I talk to who are sick and tired of being sick and tired of the way this world
"appears" to you, you are not alone. If you feel that you need some real answers, then read on, because I, too, have
seen much sorrow and I have returned with a powerful message of hope for those who wish to listen.
However, you must understand that this catalyst, that most call "Devil or evil" is what allows us choice. It will allow you to
tell your-self that you do not deserve to live in peace. It will allow you to tell you-self that since you hurt, it's okay to hurt
others. It will even help you justify engaging in risky behavior if it is your desire to do so. It is allowed to test you until you
either pass the test and graduate, or fail the test and be recycled until you get it right.
Many of us tend to internalize the worlds problems. We try to carry its weight on our shoulders and as the world
continues to grow ever more cold, callous and calculating just to survive its-self, it begins to pull us down more and more
each day. DO NOT LET IT, IT IS JUST A TEST OF YOUR RESOLVE!
If we wish to recover from an addiction, first we must learn to deal with the painful anger at the injustice we witness each
day. Our first task is to learn to accept the things that we can not change, change the things that we can, but to realize
there are some things in this world that are just as they are supposed to be at this point in human development. And the
sooner we come to terms with this reality, the better off the world, for us, will be.
We have all experienced events in our lives that we have allowed to define who we believe we are. These events often
lead us to believe that we were not good enough or have failed our-self or, worse yet, others. Again we have lied to our-
self, and the sad part of all of this, most believe these lies. I now hope to expose these discrepancies by painting these
self-destructive thoughts with bright colored paint to allow you to detect, arrest, and replace these ideals with hopeful
thoughts and healthy ideas.
However, no matter how much our tester begs, pouts, cries or pleads with its hostage, the hostage must learn not to
listen to its allure. Only after one truly becomes willing, will the one be set free from this prison in order to then be placed
on a difficult, but do-able journey towards dis-believing the self-taught lies.
However, if you allow complacency into your mentality it will continuously fight back resisting change. Therefore, no
matter how much one thinks one knows, anger, resentments, cravings, obsessions and adverse addictions know the
heart of all, better than all know thy-self.
We are all prone to risky behavior(s). Religion often has no say here, and for some of us there is not a gun big enough
to get us to realize that we are being tested, simply because the payoff to numb our-self overrides the cost of feeling our
pain. Therefore, all I can do here is to help you weigh up the costs vs the gains.
I hope that my readers will understand that all forms of adverse addictions have their roots in the same ground, and that
all adverse addictions are acts of self-survival or rebellion towards a flawed society. It has been my observation that all
addictions have their roots in fear of the unknown and/or trauma. Trauma meaning some negative influence that we felt
powerless to control. Therefore, when we fail to deal with trauma's feelings of loss, we seek a way to numb the pain.
We often begin our journey into the world of artificial stimulation out of curiosity or peer pressure. For many of us it
becomes our "out" or a mechanism to be more socially acceptable. For others it's a relaxation technique. Some appear
to have the ability to maintain reasonable use, whiles others, quite obviously, can not. For many of us addiction is
progressive, taking us places we swore we'd never go.
For others, it appears that in life there are conditions that cause some of us to become curious. Just mark a door with a
"Danger" sign and see how fast this personality type wants to open the door to see for its-self. Soon the allure takes
these captive and addiction slowly takes hold.
No matter how we get there, for most of us the results are always the same; guilt, frustration, jails, institutions or an early
death of our earth-suit. Therefore, again; We must now learn to allow the world to do what it is going to do. Families are
crumpling, kids are running rouge, it's a sign of the times. Therefore, we must learn to deal with the adverse feelings
and emotions that we feel. We must learn to cry and express our pain in healthy ways. We must tell our-self that it is
okay to feel the pain, it is a process that I call "Repairative Therapy". Pain is a healing tool, our helper, but only if we
understand and utilize it properly.
Because if we do not learn to express our feelings, we will continue using artificial stimulation to numb ours-self and
soon we become prisoners, whores of our own addictive brain chemistry. Now in order to maintain the same level of
comfort, the more heinous the addiction must become. Therefore, all addictions are progressive.
These chemicals then allow for a faults sense of security through denial and its insanity. Therefore, as traumatized,
angry and often sorrowful peoples these brain chemicals often become our only means of escaping our-self and the
harms that we maintain in this, a confusing, self-destructive and to often, what "appears" to us as an unjust world.
You are not going to see justice in this world at this time. Therefore, you must now learn to face this fact. Mankind
residing within this current service-to-self alignment is incapable of true justice simply because the service-to-self
mentality creates denial and co-dependency, lacking true wisdom.
When most of us think of addiction, we think only of alcohol and other drugs. Co-dependency is an addition. Selfishness
is an addiction. Pride is an addiction, just as can be organized religion. For some of us anger and rage has become our
addiction just as much as greed's materialism. These all cause the brain to rewire itself. These are all expressions of
rebellion or hopelessness, and both are signs of lack of trust in the process. Therefore, from now on whenever you see
chemical addiction words used, always put your particular type of addiction in the place of.
There is a major spiritual component for all of us in recovery. Here is where beliefs vary greatly because everyone's
understanding of a God or deity varies. After studying the Hebrew scriptures for the last twenty years I have come to the
conclusion that there is no hell, with the exception of the one we create, and that religion was not created to set us free,
but rather to enslave us within a fear based system of control. Therefore, we must allow the spirit-self within be our
guide, rather than seeking such outside of our-self. The difference between spirit and religion is; spirit comes from the
spring high up in the mountains, whereas religion comes from the tap after being filtered.
Therefore, contrary to the religious aspirations of those whom often mis-use The Bible's meaning, then create hell in
order to control the hearts and minds. It is my understanding that "hell" is a place to choose, either service-to-self or
service-to-others. It is only an eternal prison if we make it so. Or we can choose otherwise.
Whoever or whatever you choose to call "God" is entirely up to you. If you have difficulty with my understanding, please
place your own understanding in the place of mine. Right now lets just concern ourselves with recovery and not get
hung up on Matters of Faith. Fair enough?
I understand how easy it is to get caught up in the world today, the glitz and glamor is all so enticing. However, it always
leads us back to that empty and lonely place. The world and its materialistic media is so loud that it rings in our ears
causing most of our youth to fall pray to its allure. Some people of great faith even struggle everyday. Here is a great
While working with other addicts in our treatment center, one question that rather stumped me was when a young
mother asked me, "Why can't I drink like everyone else?" I was not quite sure how to answer her, so obvious, yet it was
not easy for me to answer her question at that time.
Later that evening as I was greeting our clients returning from their nightly 12 step meeting, this young mother looked
me in the eye and said, "Now I understand why I can't drink like everyone else, I'm an alcoholic. Yes this wonderful sister,
daughter, wife and mother of two has a serious problem with alcohol. If she has it, she drinks it until she is no longer her-
During her recovery she was allowed to feel her pain, she confronted her fears, she then gave the man who murdered
her mother amnesty and never touched another drop of booze. She no longer had the need for booze! I still get a tear
of joy every time I see her, or think of her story of the great loss she suffered as a child.
We must understand that we are not extensions of our addictions, but rather, our addictions are an extension of the
realities that we allow our-self to become in the faults reality where our absolute has been hidden by our preconceived
notions that cause us to lie to our-self. Therefore, it is now time to change that confused mind-set that believes its own
Now the only thing you must do, besides hang on for the ride of your life, is to become honest in all of your affairs with
your-self and others. I are not referring to cash register honesty here, but rather allow your-self to drop your guard long
enough to allow the honestly of others to help you to honestly evaluate you, because you can not safely evaluate
Why you ask? Because, just in case you'd not realized this before you are rather bias in regards to your-self! Yes, the
process is going to make you uncomfortable in the beginning. You may even cry and pout! However, think about how
your adverse addiction has caused you or others grave harms. Now think about the loss of your credibility with those in
whom you love and who love you.
You are not your out-of-control-hobby, your out-of-control-hobby is the baggage of this world so if you wish to graduate,
lose the baggage so you can enjoy an easy lite flight. However, after beginning to slowly shed those lies of excess
baggage, you must give your flight crew enough time to regain their trust in you. Do not expect them to trust you over
night. It is not going to happen! It took all of us years to lose their trust, and now it’s going to take much time to regain it.
You will always have their love, but trust must be earned.
There are now only two days of the week in which you must never be concerned about again, yesterday and tomorrow!
Here is another thought before we move on; “It is foolish to regret the past, for it cannot be changed.” - Omar Khayyam’
Well if you are the one with the hobby gone rogue, you will need to start off each new day with a prayer in your heart of
thanksgiving, as gratitude contains power we've yet to fully understand. So when you fully come to realize that you need
assistance, do not fear asking for help. What most choose to call "God" may not be as concerned about getting you out
of the trouble you are in, as much as will use your situation to help you to see your-self and the world around you from
another point of view. Remember, recovery is a process, not an event.
Stay accountable, your bags, pockets and your life must now be an open book. If you have anything to hide, you are
ready to relapse. Remember this; "It is the secrets that we keep, that keep us sick" Therefore, No more excuses, and No
more hiding! Denial is Not a river in Egypt, it is a heart condition that will lead you back to the gates of self-hell if you do
not manage your free-will..
And stay away from slippery people, places and things like your-self!
If you think you are to good for recovery, you're not getting it!
One thing that I discovered is that cost does not always have a variance on the quality of care. In fact, I have witnessed
a few families and corporations pay big bucks for people to learn how to live without their addiction, only to finally be
freed at one of the lower cost centers where I was allowed to work. Again, it’s all about the hearts willingness to comply
with the process.
Therefore, if you are the executive type who believes that you are above being housed in the same center with a guy
who was just paroled out of prison, please allow me to assure you that he may very well turn out to be your next best
friend! The cosmos appears to have a rather weird sense of irony when it comes to recovery. Parolees playing on the
monkey bars with princes was not all that unusual to see at the recovery centers where I worked.
Now be patent with your-self. Take it one day at a time. Begin by learning to know thy-self. When this is achieved it will
be reflected in the way you treat other-selves. And do not argue! No one knows for sure what is real and what is illusion.
Therefore, find ways not to argue with others because it's just not worth it. Do not allow pride to destroy you before you
even get started. Ask yourself, “Would you rather be right, or would you rather be happy and well adjusted? Now stop
arguing with babies because they mess in their pants, you are not going to win!
It is time that you learn to become willing to change every aspect of your life. Hold nothing back. You must now give up
every cookie in the cookie jar! Leave no stone unturned! There are no magic wands, silver bullets nor correct words
anyone can say. Its now up to you and your willingness to change the way you view your-self and the world around you.